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<title><![CDATA[May all beings be free from suffering: late winter in the country]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Sunday, April 21, 2013<br>&nbsp;It was early morning, towards the  end of March. My husband left to head north at 4:15 and, though I didn&rsquo;t get up right away, it wasn&rsquo;t long until I gave up on sleeping and started my usual morning routine. The dog, a 14 year old Cairn Terrier, eventually got up and came downstairs to be let out. Our neighborhood is desolate in the winter (with an uptick to &lsquo;quiet&rsquo; in the summer); the speed limit is 15, so we seldom take the dog for a leashed walk in the early morning. <br />
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After a few minutes, as is the routine, I opened the door to see if she had returned and there she was, trotting up the driveway, looking very serious. She was focused.  She had something in her mouth. There had been a few episodes last summer where she killed voles, the little ground dwelling something-or-others that burrow in people&rsquo;s lawns and disrupt their, well, their lawns I guess.  So I was expecting a vole type situation, but what I pried from her little vice-like jaws was a bunny. A silky smooth, too young to even have it&rsquo;s eyes open, heart still beating, still moving, snuggling, leaking mother&rsquo;s milk from the hole in it&rsquo;s belly where my damn dog had punctured it, bunny. <br />
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I cradled the snuggling bunny in my hands, wrapped it in a scarf, held it close, whispered words of comfort, paced around the house, went outside, came back in. Leave the bunny outside or find an animal rescue? Leave the bunny outside or find an animal rescue? Went outside again, came back in again.<br />
I called my husband- he was halfway to New Hampshire. &ldquo;Leave the bunny outside.&ldquo; Easier said than done. In this town wild bunnies are everywhere but there in my hands was a life, a snuggling, warm, gentle, clover munching life and this animal was going to die and I was going to be the witness. This is the way it goes. <br />
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I stood with that snuggling bunny, sobbing, going in and out of the house over and over and over until I sort of came to terms with the situation; I eventually settled on a suitable spot near the corner of the house to place it, under a bush. I don&rsquo;t know how to explain the difficulty of that decision, leaving the bunny outside, but it broke my heart as if I was putting down a much loved pet. I buried it on Easter Sunday with an early dandelion, a sprig of rosemary, a clipping of wild strawberry and a nice rock from the beach.&nbsp;<br />
May all beings be free from suffering.<br />
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<title><![CDATA[The country haircut]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Monday, March 04, 2013<br>I trimmed my own bangs. I was between moments when a $(kind of pricy)$ haircut seemed reasonable (these days the price includes coloring the grey hair) and things weren't looking too bad so I thought &quot;I am perfectly capable of trimming my own bangs.&quot; This goes against years of my no exceptions policy of NOT cutting my own hair. My mother and sister both prefer a bargain and so they often find themselves fixing the issues they are left with when they get home from the bargain salon. I don't have to fix anything because when I get home there is nothing wrong. If there is something wrong I call up my hairdresser and she fixes it for free. I do not cut my own hair. Except I did. And of course I cut it just a little bit crooked and also too short because that is what happens when I throw years of solid thinking out the window to save a few bucks and try to skip a haircut.<br />
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Somewhere along the line I read a blog post by an author type woman who moved from the city to the country and was writing in part about adjusting to country life. I can not find the post again for the life of me. Anyway, she'd been in the country for a few years and finally succumbed to what she called, as I remember it, the Country Haircut. It's not inherently BAD- there's just something unfortunate about it.&nbsp; Like it is the haircut that leaves style out of the equation. Like it is the most popular haircut in town because that's the only one the woman at the salon knows. Like its the haircut you will die with because Donna at the salon also works for the towns funeral director, doing make-up and hair for the deceased. The country haircut&nbsp; is utilitarian, it is not stylish.<br />
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After my bangs f*ckup I was chatting with a couple of well-regarded local ladies and realized suddenly that we all cut our own bangs and that we all looked a little folksy and utilitarian. It was disconcerting, but I stopped for the moment being embarrassed about my hair. And this must've been when I slipped another inch down the slope because before I knew it I had colored my own hair with some of that crap you buy at the CVS. And it was an unmitigated disaster. So then I tried to fix it with another box of crap- also a disaster- and and only THEN did I send my hairdresser a facebook message and leave her a voicemail at her home number. Because, seriously, this has to stop somewhere.   <br />
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Denouement: My hairdresser called me back and said something soothing like &quot;there is always a solution.&quot; I have an appointment.]]></description>
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<title><![CDATA[The Country News- Transportation]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Sunday, August 05, 2012<br>Last year, or maybe the year before, I rode my bike to the center of<a href="https://www.google.com/search?q=little+compton,+RI&amp;hl=en&amp;client=firefox-a&amp;hs=oqM&amp;rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&amp;prmd=imvns&amp;source=lnms&amp;tbm=isch&amp;sa=X&amp;ei=A3YeUMyzNImi2gWrkoGwDg&amp;ved=0CHQQ_AUoAQ&amp;biw=1437&amp;bih=737"> town</a> on an early fall evening. I finished my errands and I readied my headlight and rear flasher (always prepared)  for the mile ride home. I was shocked at the darkness as I left the three streetlights in town behind. My light- new, halogen, bright-seeming in my living room- barely lit the bumpy road in front of me. These country two-lane roads have a soft shoulder, by which they mean drainage ditch. Cars zoomed by. It was a sort of panicky mile.<br />
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My commute is a 15-mile drive on back roads to a pottery studio in another state. Five days a week, twice a day, going on three years, but sometimes on the drive I think I am lost. Sometimes the scenery looks utterly unfamiliar. I wonder if I took a wrong turn somewhere or I wonder if I&rsquo;m coming down with some kind of early-onset dementia. Then I see a familiar tree or mailbox and everything is fine again, by which I mean that reality aligns itself with my expectations.<br />
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Once a week I drive almost an hour to teach a yoga class. Lately, on my way home, I&rsquo;ve been stopping for soft-serve ice cream at the place where I had my first real job. I get a medium chocolate with <a href="http://www.slashfood.com/2006/08/06/sprinkles-vs-jimmies/">jimmies</a>. The feel of the jimmies and ice cream on my tongue when I take those first twenty or something licks is heart-achingly comforting, yet always feels new and revelatory. After the jimmies are gone it&rsquo;s just another ridiculously delicious ice cream cone. Stopping for ice cream is not a wise business decision (I&rsquo;m literally eating my profits), nor is using two gallons of gas to get to and from a class that rarely has more than five people in it. I don&rsquo;t teach yoga for the money.<br />
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I do not get excited about driving. Three years ago I would&rsquo;ve told you I hate driving. I see this change as a great improvement.<br />
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I just got a weird part-time job for a farmer who lives around the corner from my house, close enough to ride my bike. The farmer is very business-savvy and quite successful and well-established. He wants to start a proprietary line of lacto-fermented products and I am his test kitchen assistant. He and I get along well so far. We&rsquo;re both quiet and excited about sauerkraut. I&rsquo;ll let you know how it turns out.<br />]]></description>
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<title><![CDATA[the wind]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Monday, February 20, 2012<br>Marie moved in with Jason exactly one week after they kissed in the parking lot. He helped her transport the heavy things from her apartment across town and since she gave a month&rsquo;s notice it took exactly a month to move everything. Jason&rsquo;s place was nice- it was very clean and tidy and he didn&rsquo;t appear to have pee stains on the floor, like her last boyfriend. Jason even had the customary prayer flags hung. She knew he came from a respectable family.<br />
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There was a light breeze on that spring day when she moved the last box from her Subaru. A puff of air would touch one flag and the movement of one would pull the whole strand in a lazy, domino dance. His house, THEIR house, had a glorious view of the river and sometimes wild animals would cross the grassy field behind their place heading to the stand of forest on the other side of the neighboring farmer&rsquo;s dirt road. <br />
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Though it was technically spring the trees were still bare of leaves. Marie liked the lichen-y cover that the loss of leaves revealed in the fall, though people in the town seemed united against the lichen. Marie had looked online -didn&rsquo;t these people use their computers?- the lichen was harmless and only indicated good air quality. Oh well. Soon people would be too distracted by the wonders of summer to worry about lichen. But Marie thought about it all year. <br />
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Marie could feel the ground ready to erupt in a raucous display of life. She felt like if she put her ear to the ground that she would find out something she didn&rsquo;t want to know. Sometimes she imagined a tiny insect and animal city underground with little bulldozers and shovels preparing for the surge of life from the plants roots. It had something to do with photosynthesis, she was sure, dormancy and something else but she slept through her science classes more often than not. The facts were elusive. However, she was perfectly aware that tiny shovels and bulldozers were in no way involved in the build up and eruption of Spring. She blamed Disney, or perhaps Pixar. She knew that if she put her ear to the ground the only result would be a wet ear.<br />
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The summer was brilliant, as they are, and made all the more exciting by new love. And as the couple settled into fall Marie noticed a change in the winds. They now came at the house directly from the West, straight off the river. The prayer flags would spend days aimed directly at the house, as if they were starched to attention or were held up by some horizontal gravitational force. Jason worked more at this time of year so nights when Marie was alone, with the windows rattling, front porch light illuminating the straight shot flags, she wondered if the prayers of the people across the river were getting stuck at her house. She started sweeping in front of the house, behind the flags, in an effort to dislodge any of the invisible prayers stuck there. There was no way to tell if she was making progress.  Why would the wind not stop blowing? It seemed as if it had been going on for months. At some point she started smoking again from the loneliness and her low grade panic, but outside she could find no nook or cranny sheltered from the wind. She imagined the winter, with the snowdrifts and the cold rain. Surely she would stop smoking by then.<br />
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She did not stop smoking by winter. And the wind continued to blow, peeling the paint off the shutters and the trim, unraveling the flags thread by thread. <br />]]></description>
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<title><![CDATA[Small town cops]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Wednesday, February 08, 2012<br>I live in a small town. It is a nice small town and though it has maybe a meth lab or two (doesn&rsquo;t every town have at least one these days?) I think its heart is still good. I lived in a town once that lost it&rsquo;s heart. It was a gradual losing, made most obvious by the addition of two cliche chain coffee establishments. I left eventually, along with many others. It became a transient kind of place and has not recovered, if a town can.  <br />
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Anyway.<br />
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Most of the daily pursuits in this town are dedicated to the maintenance of homes, farms, and old people. Also, fishing. There are no sidewalks or streetlights. There are three churches representing the three religions; Catholic, Protestant, and Episcopalian. There&rsquo;s a peace alliance that meets on Sundays and protests something on the town common and I personally know some Buddhists who meet in one of the churches for meditation once a week. No one seems to mind.<br />
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We have small town cops. I am sure you&rsquo;ve heard of them. They are as you might imagine them to be, only more and less so. A couple of the police dispatch guys I particularly like and am friendly with; in a small town becoming friendly with one person or another is almost inevitable. My husband is friendly with a lot of people. He is outgoing and from the South and so more talkative in general but in an entirely comforting and pleasant way that lends itself well to living here. Except when it comes to the cops, with whom he attempts to have a dialogue. <br />
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Generally cops don&rsquo;t want to make small talk. If you&rsquo;re being approached by a cop (i.e. pulled over) it&rsquo;s likely you did something wrong, or looked like you were about to do something wrong, or like you might know something about a wrongdoing. There might be the rare occasion, if you know the cop approaching, that he is wondering about your ailing mother or wants to inquire about your sister, on whom he always had a crush, but in general cops, I think, expect to ask questions and be answered with respect and in short sentences. I&rsquo;d venture to say that cops don&rsquo;t really care why you are driving around with a headlight out, even if there is a good explanation for it. Like if you hit a deer, which at certain times of year before sunrise and after sunset, is very likely, at least here, in this town.<br />
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It&rsquo;s possible that if you give a small town cop some attitude when he pulls you over for having a headlight out that you will likely be pulled over again, by the same cop, even after you fix the headlight, just to make sure there are no wrongdoings you&rsquo;ve neglected to report. He might even approach you when you are parked on your own lawn and question the wisdom of your decision to park on your lawn. Those things are indeed possible if you live in a small town and are almost inevitable if you&rsquo;ve hit a deer and sassed the cop who pulled you over about the broken headlight.  <br />
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So that&rsquo;s the way things go here. It&rsquo;s a small town. <br />]]></description>
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<title><![CDATA[Small Town Holiday Decorations or "You Light Up My Life"]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Friday, December 23, 2011<br>This is my third December living in a quaint town in New England after being away for about 20 years. I don&rsquo;t recall much about the local holiday decorations from my childhood, but I have already taken note of the houses  around town with their own traditions of lighting things up. <br />
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&nbsp;The Shooting Star -  Every year these folks suspend a glowing star-shaped assembly of lights from their wind turbine. It even has long trails of lights so that, if you see it out of the corner of your eye through the trees while you&rsquo;re driving, it might look like it&rsquo;s moving. <br />
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&nbsp; The Goose -  Last year the owner of the farm stand up the road had a greenish glowing goose in an upstairs window until Feb 2. I became obsessed with the goose,having noticed it after Thanksgiving, wondering when it would disappear. Unfortunately it has not reappeared this year though I look for it every day. There will be much rejoicing if it does appear.<br />
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&nbsp;Santa at the Helm - This 2 ft tall injector molded plastic santa figure used to sit in the wheel house of an out of commission fishing boat. Suddenly this year, even though the boat hasn&rsquo;t moved, it is shrink-wrapped  (standard boat protocol). Santa now stands at the prow outside of the plastic.<br />
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&nbsp;Sharp-Turn Pine - a simple display of large colored bulbs that spiral up a pine near a moderately dangerous corner. It&rsquo;s a classic and lovely message of safety and indicates to me that home is only 2 minutes down the road.<br />
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Other Things in the Shape of a Tree - Well-stacked lobster pots, decked out with pine boughs and ribbons. This stands at the entrance to a local market and the first time I saw it (at night) I thought it was an enormous tree. That's how well done it is. I also saw a hay bale pyramid covered with ribbons; it was much smaller than the lobster pot tree but was a welcome sight in a corn field on my way to work.<br />
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&nbsp;New Entry!!!- Blooming Flowers -&nbsp; For most of the summer the farmers across the street sell their tasteful heirloom tomato plants from a tasteful little table in their tasteful driveway. Recently I&rsquo;d noticed a weird bluish glow in their greenhouse but chalked it up to None of My Business (one of the principles this town was founded on). Tonight I noticed that the glow has moved outside and become two probably 6-feet tall &ldquo;flowers&rdquo; blooming in their field. It&rsquo;s terrifically out of place in this land of quaint white window candles and red-ribbonned wreaths, but I couldn&rsquo;t help but feel a surge of honest to goodness holiday cheer. <br />
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Hooray Electricity! Go USA! <br />
Wishing you all peace and joy.<br />
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<title><![CDATA[Only today]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Wednesday, March 09, 2011<br>A woman in her late 60s, an old friend of my boss', has battled cancer since the late-1990s. She's been struggling through it again, and after some recent treatments her immune system was terribly compromised; she was ordered to stay away from sick people. Yet, when she returned home, her husband of 40 years had taken ill. She was disappointed but thought little of it; she was so exhausted and overwhelmed again by the disease. They tried to comfort each other with a door between them. They shared a little news, but not much was to be said. He was dead before three days passed. They had not said goodbye. A blood infection, they said.  I've read some of her poems. They about ripped my guts out.<br />
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A young couple, just starting out, bought some land in the small town where I live. She: a young sculptor with a following. He: an architect with vision. They discussed their house designs with the off-season fishermen and retired professors at the cafe in town. These old men took a shine to the young couple, seeing there all the promise of an unwritten future. The couple took a drive to Maine to acquire a new boat. I do not know the details of their trip. He returned with the boat. It was snowing that day, the day she drove back, and she rear-ended a truck on the highway and died as he was showing off the boat to their friends.<br />
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Maybe, for me, once something crosses the line from &quot;really horrible thing that happened&quot; to &quot;tragedy&quot; the concept of degrees, greater or lesser, becomes moot. Tragic is tragic, there is one note to it. Both of these events are tragic to me but neither is less than the other. Or, rather, they are constantly trading places in my head. Sometimes it is the first story with the poetry and loss, the richness of a whole complicated life that saddens me. Other times it is the second story where I become lost,&nbsp; the last rays of sunshine fading before a long night of battling the elements in a barely seaworthy boat, out of sight of land. <br />
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More than anything I am reminded that my life is lovely and random and that, for now, fortune and nature are pursuing entertainment elsewhere.]]></description>
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<title><![CDATA[Notes on attending a Thanksgiving morning service at the Friends Meeting House (built in 1815) in Little Compton, RI.]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Thursday, November 25, 2010<br>It's cold. <br />
These benches really discourage slouching.  <br />
Next year I'm sitting closer to the fireplace. And wearing gloves.<br />
Hey, where did everyone get the handouts?  <br />
(silence) <br />
I only know the first verse of this song.  <br />
(silence) <br />
The silence is really pleasant.  <br />
People are spontaneously and thoughtfully expressing thanks.  <br />
To the guy who expressed his thanks for the Native Americans who were here for millennia before the white kids- nicely done.  <br />
(silence)  <br />
Oh, I don't know any of the words to this song.  <br />
Wait... It's over?<br />
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Other thoughts: It's <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Friends_Meeting_House_and_Cemetery">a pretty neat building</a>- built originally in 16-something then rebuilt in 1815. There are very cool panels that are raised and lowered by an internal rope pulley system. All the panels were raised today. As far as I can tell, it's the only day of the year that the building is used for any kind of worship or community gathering, the rest of the time it is a museum.    <br />
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The service lasted about 20 minutes and the place was packed; nearly SRO. I was in the upstairs balcony, though balcony is really too grandiose a word. The two short readings were old letters- one by Abraham Lincoln and one by I think an early colony member (but I'm not sure- I didn't get a handout).  During the long periods of silence people gave spontaneous thanks- for the farmers and the good harvest,  for the community, for surviving a period of hardship. It was really beautiful.]]></description>
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<title><![CDATA[The last days: consolidated]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Saturday, May 29, 2010<br>May 10th<br />
Today was a bit rough.<br />
I saw a strange mammal- probably a cat. DH asked &ldquo; did you chase it?&rdquo;. <br />
Me: Ummm&hellip;no. Why would I chase it?<br />
DH: So you could catch it.<br />
Me: Hmm. I&rsquo;m not a really a &ldquo;chase the animal&rdquo; kind of girl.<br />
In a demonstration of our team&rsquo;s frustration Kevin started throwing coconuts at a bull. It came close to charging him. I took some pictures of it.<br />
We have 4 more days of surveys and I am tired.<br />
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May 12th<br />
This is my last full day on Pagan. I volunteered to leave with Fearless Leader tomorrow morning (more likely tomorrow afternoon). He has alienated pretty much everyone on the trip with his bad attitude.<br />
Today Kevin and DH lassoed another monitor lizard.<br />
It was so hot yesterday; I think my brain cooked a little.<br />
The little mangoes we found were just little juicy bits of sunshine- mostly pit and skin but still a delight.<br />
The only weird part of being the only woman of reproductive age in a camp full of men has been the walk to the tent from the I-can&rsquo;t-even-pretend-to-call-it-a-shower rinsing booth. After days of watching me, Gus, the craziest of the local guys, invited me to go fishing with him, which has made me the subject of much ribbing from the snail team. I could stay and be Princess of Pagan! Ha. I said that if the Gus can find and kill a unicorn that I will consider it. I think that&rsquo;s a pretty safe bet.<br />
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May 13th<br />
So last night, after a very heated post-dinner discussion about logistics, I left the table to spend some quality alone time in the tent. Then I noticed that the volcano was glowing red. It was quite a sensation and we all took some long exposure pictures. After a couple of hours the glow died down. This morning the crater has been chugging out smoke like an old coal engine. We&rsquo;ve not felt any tremors yet.<br />
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May 14th<br />
I made it back to Saipan with a couple of others from the crew. I can hardly express the joy of a long shower with plenty of soap. Fearless and S.M. are going sight seeing but I am holing up in the air conditioning with a bag of Doritos and some Diet Cokes. Gonna watch a ton of C.S.I. and take a nap.<br />
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<img width="400" height="435" src="http://www.happyrobot.net/userfiles/jender/teamsnail.jpg" alt="" /><br />
This is Team Snail<br />
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<title><![CDATA[Pagan Journal]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Tuesday, May 25, 2010<br>May 9th, Pagan Island<br />
Mother&rsquo;s Day.<br />
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It&rsquo;s Sunday so we only surveyed this morning- the heli dropped us in a terrible swordgrass and a&rsquo;a field near a nice looking gulch. We stumbled around and finally got to the snails without breaking any legs. Small miracle.<br />
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S.M. just can&rsquo;t stop dropping things! First it was the $250 marine band, 2-way radio dropped down a lava hole before the helicopter was even completely off the ground. Then he lost his gloves&hellip;.then he dropped the only live <i>Achatina</i> we&rsquo;ve seen down a hole&hellip; and today&hellip;he dropped his pen. It&rsquo;s totally hysterical and he will be hearing about it for a good long time.<br />
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With our afternoon off, the boys and I decided to snorkel our way down the coast from the beachside saline lake, a ways north from camp. The lake was creepy&hellip;too warm, murky, tilapia building egg mounds and sh*t.  We opted for the ocean. The rock formations were great and the coral heads not as developed as we&rsquo;d expected though we did see many wonderful fish and colorful corals. The water gets very deep very quickly which might be one reason we saw two white tipped reef sharks. One took quite a shine to us and followed us for a good 20 minutes. I was the first to opt for getting out of the water (after 20 minutes) but the rest of the gang wasn&rsquo;t far behind.<br />
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Food: Lunch was spaghetti and sauce with ubiquitous SPAM. It was a bit of overkill but at least did not actually involve killing. Tonight the camp team killed a goat and a pig and an octopus. Unfortunately it was the same octopus seen today by D.S. who felt incredibly guilty about disclosing its location. None of it was prepared anything close to delicious. I opted mostly for granola bars and leftover pancakes.<br />
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Coffee cups are a prized commodity. Currently the team has four that are in rotation among the 8 of us.  No matter how early I get up, I never seem to get in the first round.<br />
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We&rsquo;ve been eating a lot of the bits from the MREs (meal ready to eat). They have raisins and peanut butter crackers and usually some kind of candy or snack. The entrees are worth passing over or trading (for more peanut butter). Kevin raved about the chocolate shake for days. I ate my last packet of coconut M&amp;Ms. They were delicious.<br />
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Seen today:<br />
SHARKS!<br />
Octopus (R.I.P.)<br />
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<title><![CDATA[Trip Journal pt. 3]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Saturday, May 22, 2010<br>May 6th 7 PM<br />
Pagan Island<br />
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We  are all finally here. There were lots of weight limits to contend with as well as supply drops. The camp`` organization team is struggling, I can just tell. The last personnell drop was just me and Kevin. The pilot let Kev do most of the flying and he did a good enough job but I was very happy that the pilot took over for the landing part&hellip;.down a WW2 runway that is cut short by a big field (and 10+ ft wall) of black lava. Camp is hardly set up &ndash; totally bare bones. There are not enough cots or tents and there is no food to speak of. The cook and some camp guys went fishing so that we could have something for dinner- boiled fish and white rice with onions. Kinda nuts. Fearless is pissed and he has been here the longest.  Most of us helped erect a really big canvas tent that we can sleep under and we found a bunch of wooden pallets (2 each) that we can push together to sleep on. Hopefully it is not terribly uncomfortable. Also, hopefully, it does not rain.<br />
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Animals today: LOTS of spiders with huge web nests (orb spiders I think)<br />
Black butterflies with lavender spots (milkweed butterfly?)<br />
Gold cocoons<br />
An insanely toxic looking caterpillar<br />
Fruit bat!<br />
Goats.<br />
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May 7th 8 PM<br />
This is a pretty amazing place.<br />
The beach is a crescent of black sand- quite stunning- the water is warm and you can see areas where the warm fresh water from geothermal vents mixes with the sea. The coral heads looked great from the plane and we are all looking forward to exploring. There are only about 15 people here- one guy lives here and monitors the active volcano, Mt. Pagan. It has been smoking since April 21.<br />
There are almost no mosquitoes.<br />
The little flies are worst in the hottest part of the day but they don&rsquo;t bite and are only active from about 5:30 AM till dusk.<br />
We ate granola bars, beef jerky, and M&amp;Ms for breakfast- all stuff we had brought along, and there was not much of that.<br />
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We waited for the helicopter for a long time- finally he came and took us in separate teams to 2 gulches on the south side of the island. We worked through the intense heat in long pants, long sleeves, hats and boots but both teams found snails and collected some genetic samples. Have I mentioned the spiders? TONS of them.<br />
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I will not take any pictures of spiders.<br />
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<description><![CDATA[Thursday, May 20, 2010<br>May 5th.<br />
Still on Saipan.<br />
We are in a town called Susupe. Or maybe Garapan.<br />
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This morning we got the go-ahead to send 2 team members to Pagan Island by plane. Fearless Leader chose Bjorn as his trip buddy. They left after much fretting about all manner of things. Maps! Timing! Lost days! But what can we do?<br />
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Several of the team also managed to get on a helicopter to Sarigan Island [note: where all the feral ungulates were removed by aerial hunting and a flourishing monitor population]. They will be looking for snails and <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marianas_Island_Scrubfowl">megapodes </a>.<br />
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Notes on yesterday's excursions to find <i>P. gibba</i>:<br />
LOTS of land crab burrows. Creepy giant hermit-crabs. DS grabbed one and it removed itself from from the <i>Achatina fulica</i> shell it was residing in. Totally gross.<br />
We found over 40 snails of all age classes and collected 5 tissue samples.<br />
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11 PM<br />
Bjorn did not get to Pagan.<br />
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Thoughts on Saipan:<br />
Steamy and warm. Many strange abandoned construction projects- probably a result of the Asian tech boom in the 1980s. Now enormous buildings are left abandoned to molder. I would hardly call it a touristy place- we saw few people yesterday, most of them at the Grotto and almost all Japanese and Korean.<br />
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Our hotel is directly adjacent to what can only be called a rooster farm.<br />
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Betel nut chewing is prevalent and there are signs in businesses that prohibit chewing (actually, I am sure they prohibit the accompanied spitting). Many people have the red stained mouth and terrible teeth that indicate a habitual betel chewer.<br />
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I banged up my right leg pretty doing some secret snailer snorkeling. Shin is bruised and scraped. Also, the pandanus with the saw-toothed edges gave me a few scrapes but I also noticed that it formed little blisters where it pierced the skin but did not tear. Lovely. Pagan supposedly has aggressive wasps (called boony bees) and beetles that spit formic acid and give nasty burns. Also, people say lots of things about the massive amount of flies to deal with. Hmm.<br />
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New species seen:<br />
Countless fish that I am unable to identify.<br />
White-tailed tropicbirds<br />
sandpiper (one)<br />
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(Tune in Tomorrow: we reach Pagan Island where there is no food)<br />
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<title><![CDATA[Trip Journal pt.1]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Thursday, May 20, 2010<br><center>  <object width="425" height="320"> <param name="flashvars" value="offsite=true&lang=en-us&page_show_url=%2Fphotos%2Ftropicaldepression%2Fsets%2F72157624077690234%2Fshow%2F&page_show_back_url=%2Fphotos%2Ftropicaldepression%2Fsets%2F72157624077690234%2F&set_id=72157624077690234&jump_to="></param> <param name="movie" value="http://www.flickr.com/apps/slideshow/show.swf?v=71649"></param> <param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://www.flickr.com/apps/slideshow/show.swf?v=71649" allowFullScreen="true" flashvars="offsite=true&lang=en-us&page_show_url=%2Fphotos%2Ftropicaldepression%2Fsets%2F72157624077690234%2Fshow%2F&page_show_back_url=%2Fphotos%2Ftropicaldepression%2Fsets%2F72157624077690234%2F&set_id=72157624077690234&jump_to=" width="425" height="320"></embed></object>  </center>  <br />
Tuesday May 4th.<br />
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Arrived on Saipan last night- crossed date line- missed a day. Aquarius Beach Tower [the hotel] is spacious- I'm sharing a suite with S.C. She's fantastic and brought good coffee.<br />
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Team meeting this AM with the camp and USFWS folks. They had nice maps. The long and short of it is that we have no idea when they will get us to Pagan Island.<br />
&quot;Maybe tomorrow&quot;- a very popular island saying.<br />
Plane? Helicopter? Boat? Nobody seems to know.<br />
Since there is no real plan for us to leave we will try to survey around here for snails. Fearless Leader has some contacts and info about <i>Partula gibba </i>that we will follow up on.<br />
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Wi-fi at the hotel but did not bring my computer. Checked email on my phone (I wonder what the charges will be) and got a great message from M_.<br />
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Other details: Fearless Leader did not realize that his license was expired so renting a car took longer than expected.<br />
People here are incredibly nice.<br />
CNMI has its own &quot;state&quot; quarter.<br />
The team is getting along well.<br />
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Birds from yesterday:<br />
white terns (not fairy terns)<br />
golden white-eyes<br />
micronesian honey-eaters<br />
island swiftlets<br />
micronesian starling<br />
collared kingfishers<br />
eurasian tree-sparrows<br />
rufus fantail<br />
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<title><![CDATA[This is not a cooking blog.]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Monday, March 15, 2010<br>Today, and in fact lately, I am unable to formulate any kind of semi-ambitious plan for myself. If I did not have the day off I would be at work, which would solve the ambition problem, and the day would end with me in bed with a tension headache and probably no dinner. Since I have a few hours before the tension headache makes normal life unmanageable I am going to cook something. <br />
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I will make a simple potato gratin with a layer of saut&eacute;ed mushrooms or perhaps a cheesecake. Two hours ago I bought all of the ingredients for the cheesecake and then decided that I might want to use a different recipe. Unfortunately, a simple perusal of recipes online shows that cheesecake recipes differ considerably from one another with some calling for as many as five packages of cream cheese. I am not going back to the store. It has been raining for what feels like 2 years but is really only several days. <br />
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I am chopping mushrooms, which I find immensely satisfying. They yield to the knife-edge and I think this is what it must feel like to slice through whipped cream. Chopping mushrooms takes almost no effort and the cross sections are so beautiful I wish that I had a microscope to see every beautiful cell. I have chopped too many mushrooms. I use a mandoline to slice my potatoes while listening to news about drug killings in Mexico. I guess that means I am making the potato gratin. Re: cheesecake? The cream cheese is now at room temperature and suitable for mixing. If I do not make the cheesecake today, on my day off, when will I be able to make the cheesecake? I cannot think that far into the future.<br />
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At work everyone is always going on about how thinking positive thoughts can solve many of one&rsquo;s worldly problems. They listen to The Secret on their mp3 players and talk about different motivational speakers. The people at work are triumphant visualizers. They can talk about positive thinking for hours. Sometimes it feels like there is no escape from positive thinking.<br />
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<title><![CDATA[topic: four things about you]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Wednesday, February 24, 2010<br>You put a picture of the foosball table in your room-for-rent ad.<br />
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You sent me a &ldquo;friend request&rdquo;. Are we friends?	<br />
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You will not respond to the thoughtfully crafted application I sent you.<br />
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You think you know everything.<br />
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<title><![CDATA[Where does it all go?]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Tuesday, February 23, 2010<br>Things I spent money on: 1992-2008<br />
Swimwear<br />
Sushi<br />
Sunscreen<br />
Bicycle stuff<br />
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Things I spent money on: winter 2009-2010<br />
Heat<br />
Health Club membership <br />
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<title><![CDATA[Drowning is not always what you do when you stop swimming]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Wednesday, February 17, 2010<br>Spoiler alert. I didn&rsquo;t almost drown. This is just a story about the time I gave up swimming while I was in the water and then figured I didn&rsquo;t really have a choice about swimming/not swimming if I wanted to do things like meet my friends for greek food later that night or even just NOT be in the water any more. So that&rsquo;s the story, and I guess you don&rsquo;t have to read anymore since you know I didn&rsquo;t drown. But I did swim a long way. On purpose.<br />
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This was a few years ago, in Hawaii of course, and I was participating in the annual <a href="http://www.waikikiroughwaterswim.com/index.html">Waikiki Roughwater Swim</a>. It&rsquo;s a 2.348 mile ocean swim along the coast of Waikiki. The currents along the coast are changeable which in some years have prompted rescues of large numbers of swimmers. I think they even cancelled the race once due to a hurricane but some hardcore folks swam it anyway. (oooh. So hardcore.) The time I swam it (1999**) conditions were good. It was a sunny Labor Day morning. Oddly, I had prepared for this endeavor by swimming in races of different lengths all summer, attending a race clinic, and joining the Masters Swim group at UH. Still, 2.4 miles is kind of a long way to swim and was the longest I had attempted.<br />
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Swimming is quite meditative if you can allow it to be. I remember at one point swimming all alone, not in a pack or drafting anyone or anything, and seeing a big spotted ray swimming beneath me in the turquoise water. It was beautiful.<br />
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When I got to the final turn there was a choice to make that we were told about and even practiced in the clinic.  Swim through the channel and fight the outgoing current but &ldquo;surf&rdquo; the incoming surges OR go over the reef and take the safe, slow way. I tread water at this last turn wondering what to do. I was so tired. Too tired to want to swim any more at all even though I could smell the coconut sunscreen from the beach and see people greeting the finishers as they ran up the beach. I wanted to already be there. I just floated there for a couple of minutes, thinking about giving up, about just letting myself sink and maybe no one would notice and it would be ok if I didn&rsquo;t finish and drowned instead. I seriously contemplated this option. Then I thought about how embarrassing it would be if I didn&rsquo;t successfully drown and had to be pulled from the water, sputtering and choking. Somehow I found enough strength to swim the last 800 or so meters.<br />
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And I ended up beating my arch rival.<br />
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<i>** It took me a while to figure out what year I swam the race. Turns out it was 1999. I finished the race in 1:47:50, seventeenth in my age group and 549th out of 777 swimmers.</i><br />
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<title><![CDATA[My Father]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Friday, February 12, 2010<br>My father and mother divorced when I was very young.<br />
My father has had three wives.<br />
He is an optimist.<br />
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My father lived in Boston, I think.<br />
When I was very young and lived with or visited him (I'm not sure which) we sometimes drove by a billboard with a giant cartoon fish on it. I liked that.<br />
At one point he had two children with the same name.<br />
It wasn't his idea, it just turned out like that.<br />
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My father had something to do with solar energy in the early 1980s.<br />
He encouraged me to wear a helmet when biking.<br />
He is where I get my bad back, my stocky frame, and my slowly disintegrating hearing.<br />
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<title><![CDATA[Smells like a new world]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Friday, February 12, 2010<br><div>I miss the smells of Hawaii. Plumeria, ginger, gardenia. A passing rainshower on a hot afternoon. No not that Hawaii (well, okay, that one too). BUT- one of my favorite smells from the islands is the smell of native forest. High above the acres of introduced turf grasses, palms and showy flowers it begins to smell sort of sulfurous, volcanic. <br />
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The heavy mists blow quickly over the slopes, obscuring your view of the valley below with some regularity. Or you could be in this mist for hours, and while it never really rains, you could be soaked and shivering within minutes. Those hikers who wore shorts in the parking lot and looked quizzically at you when you trudged off with your rain pants and jacket might understand if they have not already turned back, too cold. <br />
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Uluhe and ohia grip the crumbly ground with their roots. Uluhe tricks you into seeing solid ground where there is not. Crush this leaf and you will smell the most amazing citrus smell- what is it doing here? Here it is easy to understand why fungus joined plant roots to create mycorrhizae and why some plants developed the ability to &ldquo;fix&rdquo; nitrogen from the air. There is so little;  make due or die. Here the world is harsher and those mutualistic, parasitic and all those in-between symbiotic relationships make more sense. <br />
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Here it smells like the world at its beginning.</div>]]></description>
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<title><![CDATA[Prepare for the worst]]></title>
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<description><![CDATA[Tuesday, February 09, 2010<br>I submit for your consideration<br />
Eight things that people probably do not consider when they think about time travel to the past (only because&nbsp; I just never think about traveling into the future):<br />
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1. Indoor plumbing was not common until the mid-20th century.*<br />
2. Without their security lighting and charming docents, castles are cold, damp and dark.<br />
3. Everybody had bedbugs and head lice.<br />
4. Two words: dental hygiene.<br />
5. The modern espresso machine was not invented until 1945.<br />
6. Horses.<br />
7. Disease.<br />
8. If traveling from time machine drop-off to anywhere else, pack a lunch.<br />
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*Common in &ldquo;developed&rdquo; countries.<br />
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