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Friday, February 9, 2007

› by victoria

Seen, for $5.99 at Walgreen's: a small white-and-blue box labelled "Nicogel."

I figured, since I'd just gotten over a wretched cold, that what the hell, I should probably try to kick the habit.

Another major factor: my aunt is dying of lung cancer and a brain tumor after years of Marlboros.

So while starting to quit...
I was fine while congested.

But combining the pressures of 12-14 hour days with attempting to quit cold turkey proved too much for me. The gnawing, grating edginess.

And so I purchased a pack of Natural American Spirit Menthols and a box of Nicogel.

I smoked a few cigarettes, perhaps 4 or 5 out of the pack--doling them out one-by-one, as if they were precious sweetmeats. I bought menthols precisely because I don't really appreciate their icy coolness, particularly in sub-zero weather.

Today, when the pack of cigarettes was discovered (despite my repeated declarations of "I'm quitting! Really!"), I opened the Nicogel.

First impression upon tearing open the small foil packet: a smale globule of runny liquid stained coffee-brown.

Second impression: this stuff smells like a dirty airplane.

Third impression: it actually seems to work.

I can't help but think of the "Old Habits, New Beginnings" Strangers with Candy episode where Jerri gives Poppy Downs the "Glint" to rub in her lips.

I wonder if there are any side effects?

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