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"Other people's dreams are always so boring."
She wondered what it was like for you to see her in Wilmington - on that last day - when she rolled all the dice and debauched - while you sat like Jabba the calm Hutt watching American football and shaking your head at her.
Do you even know what she wanted?
Do you even care?
She wanted to dance with you. She was wearing her yellow gray and peach/pink and off-white sweatshirt she had thrifted with her black and pink polka dotted long skirt and she was comfortable. She was in her seat of power. She was on her last day there. It was the fourth quarter and she was doing a Hail Mary pass.
You passed on it all.
She got high and drunk - as you do when you're debauching, and you barely drank a beer. Power was your move. Head like a hole - black as your soul - you'd rather die than give her control.
To her, it looked like a slap. You just didn't want to dance with her.
There was a point you came up, and she was hopeful - "is he integrating with me? Is he going to play? Is he going to talk to me?"
Instead, "I just want to make sure you're ok. you're scaring me."
"Look león. I"m high. I'm drunk. I'm dancing. I'm all by myself."
"OK. Well, I wanted to make sure you were ok."
She went down periodically to get more fuel for her fire, and she poked his bear, but it never mattered. He was immune to any wiles she could throw. They were alone together but not in a comfortable way. He said she annoyed him.
She flipped the fuck out and slept in the spare air bn b bedroom after a text to the effect.
As you know, she woke up in the middle of the night sober and scared and confused. She slinked to the master bedroom and sidled next to him. He ignored her with his galactic back. As always.
The next morning, he hopped out of bed, and cleaned up and made coffee and put his ear buds on. She sheepishly ashamedly came down to help. They had to leave in an hour. She said to him while he smugly, calmly sat there, "it's not like you care."
His voice slowed and he said, "I care." She ignored him and dervishedly got the place in order. He kissed her on the landing. She was shocked, but didn't pursue. He never kissed her in the daylight.
They left. They didn't speak for seven hours.
Except at the Mexican restaurant.
He was so cool.
She lost her mind.
It was an end.
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