New  »   Sunshine Jen  ·  Post-Modern Drunkard  ·  Poop Beetle  ·  Robot Journal  ·  Gator Country
Search...






Feeling



«« past   |   future »»


comments[8]
all comments

post #161
bio: elanamatic
perma-link
2/17/2005
14:30

wish list
archives
first post
that week
XML/RSS


Reality Bites

Category List
Cranktankerous
Holiday
Lists
Mia
Reality Bites
The Dude


Favorite Things
drinking
· soy lattes
eating
· my words
listening
· the pink bitch
reading
· Persepolis II
watching
· the days get shorter


My Links
torontoist
sweet yumiko
The Process
Laszlo on the frontier
Pink Is The New Blog
Pitchfork
»More...




02.17.05

Sad that my Zeida Nathan is nearing death and there is nothing I can do. He turned 96 on Tuesday and has lived a full life. He has been weak for a long time but in the last week he has refused any food or drink. He is such a sweet man. As a child, he taught me the aleph bet and used to sing me oyfen pripetchik when i sat on his knee.

Mostly, I feel for my dad, his sisters, their mother and our whole family. I am overwhelmed by their hurt and suffering. Being far away leaves me feeling isolated and helpless.

Comforted that he is at home, in bed, with his family surrounding him with love.

Selfish for getting caught up in my own dramas. I was super pissy this morning because I bailed on a run due to domestic squabbling.

Megabitchy for being so intolerant of the overtly insecure or dull. I should rot.

Guilty guilty guilty for all of the above.


«« past   |   future »»