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and mother fucking god on a fucking donkey pony
everything irritates me.
why the fuck am I in this home.
I just screamed at the cat I don't wan, "what the FUCK do you want? if I knew I would give it to you? I try so hard just to be away from this shit bullshit loser life with fuckng bored cats but fuck. fuck fuck. WHAT DO YOU FUCKING WANT."
the cat didn't answer.
it just whined again and paced.
narcissi lost her fucking mind.
and vic chesnutt was playing because of course he was,
"... raiser your hand, and ask yourself a question, but make it a powerful one."
she was ready to
kick puppies
and pinch kitties
she was so fucking frustrated
her sister was laughing it up with a formerly alcoholic friend on the fucking el camino trail while narcissi had to eat, "we love you but none of us like you"
she wondered how weird it would be if
her sister wrote like narcissi did and narcissi just
ignored it as "oh that dramatic non entity"
fucking ouch
but narcissi was determined to be a counterculture hero
like whoever the fuck hurricane Nancy was
narcissi remember Valdosta. she sees it on the highway signs every time she goes south.
fuck the fucking world.
she had a father that fucked her then bitched that she complained.
fuck the
FUCKING WORLD
happy Father's Day
and she still lived
trying to dance
trying to love
trying to FUCKING MAKE YOU LAUGH
and she sucked.
wordle today was in the last try and it was
alibi
fuck you
"will no one help me? will no one share the load? is this just me? really? after all this? I just pay some bills, keep a job, keep as quiet as I can, show up for holidays meekly, and then die? fuck ...."
"yeah, I know. that's what happens when you''ere like you. he never loved you by the way. it was just boredom."
"I know"
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