I had left in November to live with (temporarily) with my Sister. He had stopped talking or touching me and won't tell me what the hell was going on with him...how much was I supposed to take?!?!
We continued to talk on the phone and he came to visit me in Jacksonville at my Sister's....he was very distant...mentally, emotionally....I was trying to not be overbearing, or pushy. But I knew something was wrong...and I was already heartbroken, because he was treating me diffrently than ever before (we were together 5 years) so you see what I mean....
December rolls around and he decided to spent it with his family...I understood. But I missed him horribly, and Christmas without him seemed so strange...especially since he had become such a important part of my family (he even saw me through my mom's death 2 years before).
He did'nt call me. I got no card. Nothing.
Finally, I drove back to Tallahassee. To our apartment. He still was'nt home.
I discovered a paper with this written all over it. "I feel like she uses me", "I don't love her anymore", "I don't want to be with anyone".....this still rings in my head. It was'nt even put away...just out there.
I left and called him at work the next day.
Nothing came of it. I went back to Tallahassee for New Years, to see friends...to really see if I could salvage whatever the hell was going on...I guess I had'nt hurt myself enough.....
I went to his parents house. I saw him and knew that it was over. We went back to our apartment...and I asked him if he wanted to go get coffee (something we did if there was an issue we needed to work out...) he said "I'm going to get coffee with someone else" ...I said "What's her name...?"
They've been together since before I moved out...they worked together, so I guess that's how they met. From what I understand they're married.
